A Father’s Day without Dad
GUEST COMMENTARY
Dr. Samuel B. Hoff
My father passed on April 16th of this year, on the same day that his father died 40 years ago. A few weeks later would have been his 56th wedding anniversary, 82nd birthday and Father’s Day. But instead of thinking about what he and our family missed, I am comforted with memories of a life well-lived and of the lessons which Dad imparted to me.
One of my most vivid recollections of my father’s advice as I grew to adulthood was to put tools back after I was done with them and to properly care for them. After my first hunting trip, where I carried but did not shoot a .35 Remington pump rifle, my father instructed me on how to clean the weapon and store it safely. When I neglected to clean a rifle after a subsequent hunt, Dad reamed me out before doing so to the rifle. Of course, I thought his criticism was overbearing at the time, though I now understand his meaning. On such important matters, there should be no need for a second reminder.
Though my father could be abrupt when needed, he was an eminently patient man. That patience sometimes was put to the test. For example, before I learned to drive, he was always the last one in the high-school parking lot after my football games. The reason is that I was excessively slow in getting changed after games, to the point where the equipment manager of the team would give me grief. However, my father was always waiting with a positive word for my performance. Patience also relates to fortitude: to sticking to something, to finishing what is started. I am grateful to Dad for conferring those characteristics.
Dad was a people-person whose occupations included owning a wholesale plumbing-and-heating business for 40 years, and being a Realtor for another decade after that. I used to marvel at how his employees in the stockroom could berate the company’s policies one minute and come to my father’s defense the next. Now I know. Beyond any fear of losing their job was an intense loyalty they felt toward him, a trait that he first displayed toward them. Whether at work or play, my father was loyal to employees and colleagues. It is why he had such a wide circle of friends: he did not let them down or abandon them in tough times.
I didn’t regard my father as a complainer. However, when he saw something he didn’t like, he would speak up. He taught me about taking a stand and defending it, no matter what slings and arrows came my way. Sometimes his disagreement would be overt, and other times it was practiced through quiet protest. But in whatever form, it was always principled, always for a reason which he clearly explained, and never done for selfish reasons.
Like most teenagers, I used to view my father’s routines and habits as boring. But his consistency was itself a value which I have tried to emulate. For example, during the time he ran the family business, I never saw my Dad take a day off for other than a medical procedure or a scheduled vacation with my mother. For 40 years, he got to work at 8 a.m. and would be home by 5:30 p.m. He liked to start his day — every day — with a bowl of oatmeal topped off with a few scoops of apple butter. How I yearn for just one more day to smell that concoction at the breakfast table.
Throughout his life, my father comprehended the need for balance, to equalize the seriousness of life with humor. Maybe it was being born in the midst of the Great Depression or that he grew up with radio, but he knew how to listen and to tell a story. The best ones would have a comical ending; they would leave members of the family laughing and repeating his yarns for years thereafter. A father and later a grandfather, he was assured of an audience for his tales. Even after his passing, I am confident that his reminiscences are safe for several generations to come.
However obvious it seems, children should recognize that fatherhood is unique and that the patriarch of one’s family is not always going to be around to celebrate the special times in life. I am so lucky that my Dad was there for my brother, sister and me, whether at holidays, at graduations or just to watch a ballgame with. Through my tears at his absence, I will remember his life with pride, reverence and appreciation.
Editor’s note: Dr. Samuel B. Hoff is the eldest son of the late Samuel R. Hoff, who resided in Lykens, Williamsport and Montoursville, Pa.